Dream Job

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When I was about six or seven years old, I remember my uncle saying to me, "Figure out what you want to be when you grow up, and do whatever you can to accomplish that, otherwise, when you get to be my age,  you'll wind up not knowing what you want to do and will be stuck with a crappy miserable job."  I didn't quite know what he was saying, but for some reason it always stuck with me.  The problem is when I was six I desperately wanted to be a ballerina (despite never having had a dance lesson, ever), and it took me a long time to let that dream go.  As I got older, a much bigger dream took it's place.  And ever since, it's the only thing I've wanted to grow up and become.  An actor.  A successful actor.  Not a ramen noodle eating struggling actor and not community theatre hobby actor, but an honest to god working professional actor (without a day job).

I was in my first play when I was 5 years old.  It was my kindergarten class' Halloween production.  The class was divided up into Pumpkins and Ghosts, but I was given the prestigious roll of Witch.  I was the only kid who got a special part (obviously my teacher recognized raw talent when she saw it), and after being onstage I was hooked.  Since then, I haven't gone more than about a year without being in a production.  Acting is my passion and what I've always wanted to do (other than wearing a tutu and prancing about onstage).  If I could wave a magic wand and have any dream job I wanted that's what I'd choose.

I visited Los Angeles a few years ago and had the chance to hold an Oscar.  I could barely keep my composure as I gave my (much thought about and rehearsed) acceptance speech.  I really should look at that picture more often and remind myself what I still want to be when I grow up.  I haven't done anything professional in a few years and sometimes I feel like that ship has sailed and that I'm too old to start over again with my efforts at being a professional actor.  The time isn't right for me right now.  I want to focus on being Jack's mom, but as he gets older, I want to give it another try.  I think it's important for me to show him that a living can be made without having to go in to an office everyday.  I want him to know that it's possible to make a living wage doing what makes you happy (not that I'm not happy with my current job).  I know I most likely won't achieve fame and fortune with acting (a painful realization), but if I could make enough to support the family, I'd settle for that.  Happily.  An Oscar would be nice, though.

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  1. Never too late. Always have to have dreams.

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  2. Oh that's very cool! Before I got to the end of the post I was going to suggest getting into acting in your spare time, but you already have that covered. And you should definitely go for it when the time is right! :)

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  3. That would be cool... and hey, it could still happen. :)

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  4. there is NOTHIN wrong with raising jack backstage/in the auditorium during rehearsals-bregon was raised EXACTLY that way....backstage, in the wings, sometimes in the pit when there was one...behind the director, often in his lap, the stage manager's lap...there are people who cant remember when he DIDNT have a sword in hand knowing exactly what to do with it & in which situations it was appropriate to apply the knownledge...he had a resume with the word "Paid" on it by the time he was 7, in middle school he had credit for choreography in several productions...the child knows his way around a faire, & around a stage & everything in between...it's in his blood literally...I only WISH the babies could have had what I was able to give bregon-I struggle with finding the right places for them to learn, the people I want them to be able to learn from & the environment & people that shaped bregon into who he is now...I'm making the best of where we are at the moment, & you can find a way to do that, too! I know you can-take him with you- use your contacts that you have made over the years to work-as long as you are working, that dream is still in place & you are edging closer & closer to it if you stay busy! It can be done, & it will always be a work in progress-dont let yourself convince your head that you need to stay at home in the kitchen & raise jack at your feet-he is fully portable & can learn & grow right alongside mum!!!

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    1. You are so right! I can't believe I didn't even think of it that way. I've gotten into such a mindset of wanting to stay home with Jack because I can't take him with me to this job (can you imaging getting a massage with a baby strapped to your therapist?), but that doesn't mean he couldn't come with me to a different kind of job. I'm still breastfeeding him, so there are some logistics to be worked out with regards to doing anything, not just working or acting. I have always envisioned rehearsing while my kid(s) were backstage or in the house or hanging out on set. Thank you, Mimi!!!

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  5. When I was younger, I wanted to be a teacher, librarian or bookstore owner with an apartment above it. I'm none of those things. I learned from being in the teaching academy at my high-school that I don't have the patience for teaching :) The librarian and bookstore owner? Well, those seem like dying careers. I'm hoping I'll figure it out eventually :)

    I think you should really pursue your dream! I admire people that have a flair for the dramatics because I'm such an introvert. It's great that you know what you have passion for, so at least you know what direction to go!

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    1. I don't think real books will ever die out, so owning a bookstore or being a librarian is still possible. My mom is a retired librarian and she works part time at a thriving independent used bookstore in my hometown. Books never go out of style!

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